Sara had been unhappy in her relationship for the last six months. Her boyfriend would stay out until six am in the morning and then come home drunk. She was often afraid that something terrible had happened to him. She would tell him her concerns, but he would dismiss her or yell at her. She was conflict-avoidant and decided not to bring it up anymore. Eventually, she became more and more anxious. She decided it was time to try to speak to him one more time. She tried to talk to him in a non-judgmental way, that was not attacking.
She started by saying, “I am scared when you come home at 6 a.m. because I worry that something has happened to you.”
“I can’t take this interrogation and nagging from you. You don’t accept me for who I am. I can’t take this anymore.” He said, and then stormed out of the room.
Sara felt abandoned and empty. She was exhausted from the anxiety and worry. She started to think about the give and takes within the relationship, and realized that she had invested more emotionally, financially, and time-wise than he had. Where had she gone wrong? Had she given too much?
She started to think about what she was getting out of the relationship. She didn’t feel heard or seen. When she tried to talk about how she was feeling, she was told, “you are ruining my day or my mood.”
Sara began to keep everything to herself. In the meantime, her self-worth was dropping daily. She started to feel like she wasn’t enough, and she was unlovable. Her friends tried to convince her that she deserved better. She didn’t want to be single; she didn’t think she would ever find anyone ever again. Not to mention, then she would feel guilty for abandoning her boyfriend. Especially because all of his ex-girlfriends had left him in the past.
Leaving someone you love
How do you leave someone you love, but are feeling hurt by? Here are some ideas to consider if you are feeling lost and hurt:
1. Are you taking on responsibility that doesn’t belong to you?
In this case Sara was feeling guilty that other women had left her boyfriend in the past, and she did not want to be another woman that hurt him. The other women and her boyfriend’s break-ups with them were not her responsibility
2. Whose feelings are you feeling?
If you were to separate your pain and hurt from your partner’s feelings, what would you feel?
3. Step back and observe
Try to look at the situation from a third-person point of view. Observe without judging. What do you see about yourself? What do you notice about the situation?
4. Abuse is never ok
5. Reach out for help
If you are confused, reach out for help from someone who is not invested in you or the relationship, someone who can be more objective. Couples counselling might also be an option.
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